i know it's all pass times and i can be mad! but does it matter?

wow. thanks for everything dude. i didn't know you will do that since i didn't make that first move. i'm so (U) right now and its like crushed to thirteen thousand million pieces. you think you can repair it if you want to? nuh-uh. i don't think you want to! and i never hope you'd do that. i'll never forget what you JUST did and i know it has nothing to do with me. i'm sensitive, alright? pass is pass and i hate those. i'm just too attracted to every step you made. throwing you away thru' many ways didn't work out. you happy seeing me like this? what i said IS true! promises are meant to be broken! count how many you've promised. 2? 3? 4? countable right? you can't even do it. i wish there's a drunk lorry driver just bang me and make me lose my memories. and i could start a brand new life. and that thing, keep it in the bin. it's much safer. you dont need that. i just realised that there were many silly things i've done for you. comparing is not a very good thing. i'll pay you back if i think it's a right choice. i might be the worst and i don't change it. that's me! pictures of you in my head is a jerk! i'm sure my picture in your perfect head is a bitch. i flirt? hell no. i'm not that cheap. it shows what you think of me. it shows how you don't know me.truely dissapointed. sighs. yes i'm a loser. i admit and expose it. i'm annoying too. damn thick skin to. i regret on that night. i should've listen to her. stupid me! all these days i've been lying to myself and everyone. i'm sorry. i blind folded myself for every stupid steps you took. i dont really see it those times. now i'm clear without my glasses. i just need a long break. i'm exhausted. i'm so sorry. i've never felt this sorry before.